I love the work that I do, teaching inside of a County Jail. Some of the men and women I get to spend my time with are hungry for change. Some of them.
As a woman who no longer uses alcohol to 'make it all go away', I know it takes a lot to create a willingness to shift. That's right. Just a teeny tiny SHIFT, some people live entire lives not making a shift from the rut that habit has created for them.
Many of us sit in the mud because it's too much work to look for dry land.
Many of us have come to love the mud. Dry land is boring.
Many don't know that we don't like the mud. It's all we've ever known.
We are handed ideas that forge our beliefs and repetition makes them feel normal.
Everything and everyone else is wrong or strange or in the very least, different.
What if your normal is not pleasing you?
What if what you THINK are your values don't manifest in how you live?
What if you look at your spouse and dread the rest of your life because of them?
Is your life producing fruit of the spirit?
Happiness is the by-product of right relationships. With self, with God, with others.
Do you want to SHIFT?
Start by giving yourself permission to feel the way you do.
Invite yourself to have an open mind.
Then give yourself permission to ask questions.
Be honest with yourself.
Then be MORE honest.
Who are you when you rip off all of the labels and expectations others have dressed you in?
What makes you happy?
Stop bullshitting. Seriously.
It's ok to be afraid.
It's where many of us start.
I love the work that I do, teaching inside of a County Jail.
I love what I do because some of the men and women I get to spend my time with are hungry for change. Some of them.
And some days it's too much. There. I said it.
Sometimes it's just too much.
I've been depressed and didn't know it.
I can see clearly now.
Sam Smith performed on SNL and after listening to this song over twenty times, loudly, and sharing it with others I feel much better.
I've been in my head. Sam touched my heart. Once my heart was awakened, I could listen again, with all of me. Then I remembered to take it to God in prayer.
After talking and praying and walking and biking and sweating and eating and sleeping... after all that I've realized something.
I need to go play in the sunshine.
Today I will.