Yesterday was a difficult day for me. I had the opportunity to grow around some really old issues and it was very uncomfortable. When we need to confront ourselves, it is very uncomfortable. I believe that pain is the touchstone for spiritual growth.
Yesterday I had the opportunity to face myself and the way I behave when things that are not true about me are said. The long and short of it is this. I did it. I faced myself. I called on my sponsor, my Higher Power, I drove and listened to music and prayed. I went to see an old friend perform comedy.
I went to see an old friend. On a day when I was in doubt and insecurity, vulnerability and fear that I'd misunderstood who I am in this world, my friend Kyle who I haven't seen in at least 10 years, brought me comfort. He knows who I am, he remembers. He greeted me with kindness and interest. He was glad that I drove an hour and a half to see him. We visited and caught up and laughed after his performance.
It was a wonderful and unexpected confirmation that who I think I am is right. I am good. I am love. I am service. "Slusser, you out there doing good things in this world? Doing important things?" he said with a smile and a hug.
Old friends matter when we forget who we are.
Kyle you don't know how important our visit was last night. Thank you for being the guy I remember you being. Thank you.